The Cycle of Mistakes and Learning
"An error becomes a mistake when you don’t learn from it."
That is a quote I read hanging along the hallway of my old high school. Since then, I had integrated that to my system and for years it worked for my benefit. I no longer sulk when I commit a mistake and bad mouth anyone who corrected me. I learned how to admit my mistake, enough to take it constructively and not to end up losing confidence. I don’t want to end up being so afraid of committing mistakes that I resort to not doing anything and eventually regretting them.
In life there will be some who tried disrupting this cycle, people who expected me not to commit a mistake but rather expects me to just learn. Does that even make sense? If we consider mistakes to be experiences, what would happen to the words of wisdom “Learning from experience?” I wonder if I simply remove “Experience.”
"Learning from ____________"
Doesn’t it make things a little too easy by placing “NOTHING” in the blank.
If “NOTHING” cannot be substituted, “EVERYTHING” must be the right one.
However, that makes it too difficult.
But if we keep the old statement, it doesn’t make it too easy and too impossible to apply. It seemed possible because it is a gradual process, each day we experience something new and it’s up to us which one we’ll learn from. It is not something we can do in a period of time, so short for learning from nothing and so long for Learning from everything. The only time we can’t learn and there is nothing is when we die; and by the time we can learn everything we are no longer human.
I’m not saying “I commit a mistake because I am a human” rather “I am human because I commit mistakes.” The latter took mistakes as part of being human and not as an inherent ability of humans.
In a religious aspect, God is perfect and doesn’t make mistakes. God made us. Therefore, we are not a mistake.
In a philosophical aspect, we are capable of committing them to have an opportunity to further improve ourselves. Our continual urge to improve ourselves is what drives us to live. Life at its entirety is a process of improvement. Imagine if we can do anything from now on, if we are limitless, will the words talents, aspirations, perseverance and dream even exist. I can say if everyone is perfect, nobody is. Life as we know it ends.
Religion and Philosophy were included in general education and these are the things I learned from them. At that time I don’t see their purpose even if our instructors explained it thoroughly, now that I see their importance another person is implying to throw them away.
I know this is a rant from someone who got reprimanded. I admit that I am wrong but please let me learn in the manner stated above. Insults and conclusions were not really necessary. In fact, if someone is too sensitive he/she may feel degraded, lose confidence and become depressed. I may be demanding too much professionalism, but isn’t being a professional difficult? That’s why people respect professionals because what they do is difficult. But being a professional are not also free from mistakes, there are times that the pressure of the expectations of others are too stressful and just explode at times. I understand. Hoping that we will also be understood the same way. The only difference between a professional and a student is that the student cannot “explode” unless he is ready to face the consequences.
"If I will reprimand him, he would think I’m picking on him. If I will reprimand everyone, they will say I’m generalizing. What would you do?"——I believe this ran in your mind and felt how it feels like not knowing what is the right thing to do. Multiply that and make it more specific and you’ll understand what I feel. I believe I am on a road towards professionalism, a road you had traveled before. Am I wrong to ask for a little understanding? I’m sure you also committed mistakes, is it wrong to expect a little humility? I recognize you as my superior and give you the respect you deserve, is it wrong to also expect some respect I deserve as a student?"
If I am still wrong about everything I said and you simply want to let me taste the harsh reality that anyone above me will simply look down at me and my abilities. Congratulations, you are successful.
Someday you will just be an experience I will learn from. Thank you for that.
The Perfect Apology
Forgive me for finding something to do
Forgive me for not doing anything
Forgive me for I have committed a mistake
Forgive me for doing what I thought was correct
Forgive me for bombarding you with questions when I really don’t know what to do
Forgive me for proceeding without your consent
Forgive me for forgetting the things you say
Forgive me for following the written procedure
Forgive me for smiling and taking it constructively
Forgive me for frowning and taking it seriously
Forgive me for being enthusiastic in doing my job
Forgive me for doing them too seriously
Forgive me for not knowing the things I should have learned
Forgive me for knowing too much and looking like a “Know it all”
Forgive me for not being prepared when you come
Forgive me for things without your permission
Forgive me for speaking softly to you
Forgive me for speaking loudly to you
Forgive me for I have not adjusted to the new system
Forgive me for following the old system, since they were similar
Forgive me for being afraid of you
Forgive me for being comfortable with you
Forgive me for answering back when you ask me
Forgive me for not responding when you talk to me
Forgive me for reminding you important things
Forgive me for neglecting them
Forgive me for not believing heresays about you
Forgive me for believing them now
Forgive me for writing this letter
Forgive me for writing it in a manner you can pick which apology you can accept.
I sincerely forgive you, even if you are not asking for it, because that’s who you are.
Life is too short to hold grudges, but it will never be too short to learn from experience.
Someday I might say to myself, (if I encounter the situation I am in right now) either
"I had encountered someone like this before and that person made me stronger." OR
"I had encountered someone far worse, I’ll surely survive this."
Embodiement of a Vice
My own virgin lungs
Raped by the cigarette smoke
The taste my curiosity longs
Of nicotine, wrapping me like a cloak
Caffeine, soon you’ll be replaced
For so long you flowed in my system
Gone are the days that remained unchanged
From solitary peace, to a viral harem
I promised not to lose myself
In such a dangerous vice
It is people’s beliefs
That will lead to my demise
My youth is about to end
I’ve been good in body and mind
No wounds to heal, rules to bend
So it bored me to be so kind
This will be a permanent defect
A mistake I will try to hide
But as the saying goes, “Nobody’s perfect”
At least, At some point in their life.